I am Thankful!

This week, we celebrate the Thanksgiving holiday.

As the 2017 slowly comes to an end, it is a time for reflection, love and gratefulness. I thank God for my family, my friends, my church family, my community, my gifts, my talents, my successes and my failures. 

This year has been a time of great professional growth and success for me. I was able to accomplish goals that I had dreams of completing for many years. I wrote my first two books, started my business, created this blog and became a licensed clinical social worker. It has been amazing to see my greatest prayers manifest. 

However, it has been a challenging year for me emotionally.

 After years of dismissing my consistent, overwhelming feelings of anxiety and impending doom as “bad nerves”,  I chose to seek help as my symptoms were beginning to worsen and severely impact my quality of life. I had been experiencing a severe bout of depression in February that was worsening by the week. For a period of 30 or more days, I was waking up to a black cloud, even on the sunny-est of days. It was painful to just be alive on those days and I just couldn’t understand what was going on. But I had work to do and children to raise.. so I pressed forward. I was also experiencing severe body aches as well as headaches that would not go away even with medication. Whatever was going on in my mind.. was attacking my body.. 

At the beginning of my initial treatment session, my therapist asked me about my childhood. She asked me specific questions about my family and my household. During that session, she opened up a box that I had locked tight and placed in a steel grave inside of my soul. It was a box that I kept hidden. However, that day it was time for me to open it. 

I have spent most of my year in mental health treatment for symptoms of PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder).

The National Institute of Health defines PTSD as:  PTSD is a disorder that develops in some people who have experienced a shocking, scary, or dangerous event. Nearly everyone will experience a range of reactions after trauma, yet most people recover from initial symptoms naturally. Those who continue to experience problems may be diagnosed with PTSD. People who have PTSD may feel stressed or frightened even when they are not in danger.
To be diagnosed with PTSD, an adult must have all of the following for at least 1 month:
  • At least one re-experiencing symptom
  • At least one avoidance symptom
  • At least two arousal and reactivity symptoms
  • At least two cognition and mood symptoms

 https://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/topics/post-traumatic-stress-disorder-ptsd/index.shtml

Many people associate PTSD with the soldiers returning from war. However, there are many people in society who have experienced traumatic events unrelated to war such as shootings, accidents, rape, robberies, etc that are living with PTSD.  There is subset of folks like me who are living with phenomenon known as chronic complex trauma.  The National Child Traumatic Stress Network defines chronic complex trauma as: 

“The term complex trauma describes both children’s exposure to multiple traumatic events, often of an invasive, interpersonal nature, and the wide-ranging, long-term impact of this exposure. These events are severe and pervasive, such as abuse or profound neglect. They usually begin early in life and can disrupt many aspects of the child’s development and the very formation of a self. Many children with complex trauma histories suffer a variety of traumatic events, such as physical and sexual abuse, witnessing domestic and community violence, separation from family members, and revictimization by others. Complex trauma can have devastating effects on a child’s physiology, emotions, ability to think, learn, and concentrate, impulse control, self-image, and relationships with others. Across the life span, complex trauma is linked to a wide range of problems, including addiction, chronic physical conditions, depression and anxiety, self-harming behaviors, and other psychiatric disorders.  ”     

  http://nctsn.org/trauma-types/complex-trauma

Initially, it was very difficult to talk about my childhood and adolescence and all of the memories I had suppressed for many years. However, once I began to talk about it with my therapist and I began to understand that I had been severely traumatized from the age of 8 years old and how my trauma had impacted me, my quality of life began to improve. I realized that many of my actions in my past had been trauma responses. It was very alarming for me. However, once I learned what it was and began weekly therapy sessions, my depression and my body pain subsided.

  Being able to speak to someone HONESTLY about the realities of my feelings, my fears, my disappointments, my anger, my resentment, my loneliness, my regrets, my wishes, my truth – helped me to heal places in me that I didn’t even realize were broken.  Being able to cry, scream, yell, be angry, and ask questions in a safe place was helping me to grow. I mean, it hurt to have to face the pain, but it was the best thing I have ever done for myself and those who love me. I have spent most of the year writing..writing about my experiences, reading healing materials.. and spending time alone to process my past hurts and what I needed to do to heal myself.  The wound was open..the bandage was off and I had to let it heal in my own space and in my own way. And it healed and in that process, my second book, The Guide to Living ROYAL  https://www.amazon.com/Guide-Living-R-O-Y-L/dp/1544061013/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1504293529&sr=8-1 was birthed. 

Speaking my truth made me a more confident woman.  I had finally acknowledged pain that had always been a huge source of shame for me. It wasn’t my fault. I could finally forgive myself and take that weight off of my own shoulders. Once I acknowledged my trauma, I finally understood why I made some of the terrible choices I made in my past. My therapist is amazed that a person with my complex childhood trauma history has been able to accomplish all of the goals that I have in life.  I guess, this is the reason that I am so thankful on this Thanksgiving. I know that it is NOTHING but Gods grace and mercy that has allowed me to come out of this experience with minor cuts and bruises when statistics show that I SHOULD be a substance abuser with severe mental health issues and poor interpersonal relationships.  For the first time in my life, I feel completely free.  I thank God for  His healing powers.   

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Living Royal: Triumphing After Tragedy

For the month of August, the Live Royal Blog will feature stories of women who have chosen to “Live Royal” in the midst of unforeseen tragedies. Each of these writers were chosen because of the power in their testimonies. They are living examples of God’s promise in Joel 2:25. 

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Our first featured writer is Ms. Erika A. Dorsey. I first learned of this young woman via social media. We have so many mutual friends and I would always seeing people share her posts. After three posts, the Holy Spirit showed me that this is a person I need to be connected to. I could feel the similarities in our stories.  After we became “friends” on social media, I met her in person at a mutual friends networking event and her energy confirmed what the Holy Spirit had already told me about her.  This woman is doing amazing things in God’s kingdom in spite of tragedy. She has chosen to recognize the gifts that God has given her and to use them to enhance the Kingdom and the world. Please meet Ms. Erika Dorsey. 

 

Here is her story in her own words: 

Erika A. Dorsey is a proud mother, financial specialist and business owner of Ms. FinancialE.  Ms. Dorsey was born and raised in Baltimore, Maryland where she thrived academically and athletically throughout her grade school years. As a graduate of Western High School, she was groomed with the principles of quiet dignity, giving light to receive light, and pride to be only the best.

Erika went on to attend Coppin State University, where she majored in Management Science with a Concentration in Accounting. At the end of her sophomore year, she welcomed her daughter, Kaiya Christine and soon after continued with her studies. Unfortunately at the end of her junior year, she suffered the loss of her mother due to complications of diabetes. This tragedy forced Erika to take some much needed time off from school to handle such a major death. However, in spite of the uncertain events during her college tenure, Erika managed to graduate in 2005 with a Bachelor of Science degree.

Following her undergraduate studies, Erika has worked in a variety of financial roles that range from Banking to Corporate Accounting. She currently serves as a Senior Financial Analyst for a non-profit, and will continue graduate studies in Finance at The University of Maryland in the Fall of 2017.

For the last 17 years Ms. Dorsey has worked in a variety of financial roles, but she knew that her calling was to be a voice of reason in the community. In the spring of 2017, Ms. FinancialE was launched with a vision to enlighten, empower, and educate.  Ms. FinancialE was a business that was birthed out of lack as financial management was not taught in her household and her own parenting experience allowed Erika to realize that knowledge would activate financial power. The business was a dream deferred, but after ending some toxic relationships, overcoming many professional obstacles, the birth of her son, Gavyn Amari and obtaining spiritual maturity the journey of her purpose became clear.

As the owner of Ms. FinancialE, LLC she conducts financial workshops in a variety of settings which includes Walk by Faith Ministries and Living Classrooms Foundations among other organizations. The service provided by Ms. FinancialE allows clients to build financial literacy, develop money management skills, and maintain economic stability. She can be contacted at: http://www.facebook.com/msfinanciale. 

 

 

It is my sincere prayer that you are inspired to reach for more and that your confidence in God has increased after reading the story of Ms. Dorsey. 

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There will be more stories of inspiration coming during this month of August. If you would like to be featured, please email me at jessica@jessicatfauntleroy,com.

 

 

 

 

Fatherless Daughters: Three Things I Wish You Would Have Shown Me.

This past Sunday was Father’s Day and people all over the country celebrated their fathers, stepfathers and grandfathers.  It is  day full of joy for many people. However, for some of us, it is a day of sadness and difficulty. I know because I am one of those people.  

My father was 16 years old when I was born. As a parent myself now, I recognize that that is still a child. A 16 years old is still developing biologically and mentally, learning about themselves, their families and the world around them. A 16 year old isn’t really prepared to become a parent even with the support of their family. And that was true for my father. I do not hold a grudge against him for this. I just accept this as my and his reality. However, it doesn’t mean that this did not make life more difficult for me as I navigated through childhood, adolescence and young adulthood.

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My father spent the majority of my childhood in prison, on and off. When he was not incarcerated, I would see him from time to time. However, it was never enough to develop a father/daughter bond. It was never enough for time to develop a relationship that made me develop a secure attachment to him. It was never enough time to develop trust, security, respect and adoration that should take place between a father and a daughter. Initially, I thought that not having that type of relationship with him didn’t really matter. I felt like fathers were optional anyway since many of my friends and neighbors were experiencing the same things as a child. By the time I was 21 years old, things still hadn’t really changed.

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Once I became an adult, got married and had children of my own, I really began to understand how necessary fathers are in their children’s lives.  And through my own failed relationships and eventually failed marriage, I began to understand how much growing up without a strong relationship with my father and without the strong presence of my father affected many of my life decisions. I believe that if I learned certain lessons from my father that I would not have made certain mistakes in my life.  Here are the three things I wish he would have shown me.

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1.  That I deserve to be loved and respected by any male that comes into my life.  This is a lesson that it took me a long time to learn. I was a teenager that spent most of my teenage years dating someone that did not even deserve to be in my life in any way. However, I was so caught up in my need for attention from him until we finally split because he became too disrespectful for me to continue to tolerate.

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2. That I am not ignored, I am not abandoned, I am not worthless, I am not lonely. I spent most of my adolescence and young adulthood feeling empty inside and I never really understood why. I figured it was just growing pains of life. But the reality was that I was not being “poured into” by significant adults in my life. I was raising myself in some instances. 

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3. That it is acceptable to have a standard in life in all areas. I struggled with my destiny for a long time because I always felt that I was striving for something that I wasn’t really deserving of.  I felt like I shouldn’t have such high standards because I am not on the level of the standard I am reaching for. 

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As an adult, my father and I have a decent relationship. I have come to accept that fact that he did the best he could with the knowledge that he had at the time. He was growing up while I was.

By working through the issues I have regarding his absence, I have developed a certain level of understanding toward our situation and I am intentional regarding building positive relationships with other positive male role models in my life.

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Resolving my issues regarding his absence has positively impacted my dating relationships with men as well as my own self esteem.  Prayer and remembering that God is a father to the fatherless has helped me with accepting my truth as well as my fathers. However, Fathers Day will probably always be difficult for me as I still mourn for that fatherless daughter inside of me. 

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5 Tips for Single Parents to Stay Encouraged

Hey Guys! 

Those who follow me on social media have watched my videos on “Single Moms Making It Happen! ” that I shared earlier today.  Well, I decided to share that same message on my blog.

This message is for single mothers as well as single fathers. As divorce rates increase, there are a large number of single parents living among us in our schools, neighborhoods, churches and other settings.  I know that this is a personal subject for me as I have been divorced for the past 3 years and living in my own home with my three children. Although my ex-husband and I share custody (as many people do these days), I still consider myself to be a single parent. The fact that I am solely responsible for the finances and maintenance of my household that I share with my children makes me consider myself a single parent.  Initially, it was very difficult to transition from the role of wife/co-captain of the household to sole provider in my household.  However, with time and experience, I have managed to successfully transition into this role and thrive in it.

I want to share five tips for single parents to stay encouraged. These five tips have helped me with being successful in single parenthood. 

1. Pray!  It is no secret that prayer is very important to me. It is a vital source of my strength especially being a single parent. Sometimes this role is very overwhelming especially when unforeseen situations arise and I am left to manage them without the assistance of a partner.  Initially, those situations caused me great anxiety. However, prayer/meditation have been my weapon during the difficult times. It allows me to focus my mind on my creator and His promises to us in His word. His promises allow me to stay faithful and committed to doing my best in this role.  

Exodus 14:14 ” The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.”  

2. Stay focused on the goals that are ahead of you and the time that you still have left. It is easy to look back at your failed marriage or relationship and find fault in the situation or remember a situation in an unrealistic positive light. Constantly looking back on your past will cause you to not recognize what is currently in front of you. You could miss your blessing by ruminating on a season that has already passed.  Focusing on your health, strength, mental health, hobbies, friendship/possible dating relationships, career and most importantly your precious children will allow you to create a present that you can be proud of once it becomes your past. 

3. Surround yourself with positive people.  In order for you to remain positive and productive, you must surround yourself with people who have the same outlook on life.  It is imperative that you choose to cultivate friendships and relationships with people who want are in continuous pursuit of happiness. These people will keep you encouraged and vice versa. They will be a source of strength for you when you are experiencing difficulties. I am so thankful that I was intentional about building my community of friends and supporters that share the same attitudes, dreams and life goals that I do.  This has been what has allowed me to continue to grow in a situation that could have caused my growth to be hindered. 

 

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4. Use your resources. As single parents, we have to be more resourceful than parents that are in a partnership. We have to create a network of resources that will assist us with raising our children. This network should consist of God, family, friends, church members, neighbors, sorority/fraternity brothers/Sisters, parent groups, schools, mentoring organizations, performing arts centers, libraries, programs, daycare centers, etc. My network has allowed my children to thrive spiritually, emotionally, educationally and socially and it has been totally intentional.  If you are a parent in the Baltimore area, attached are some links of to resources that could be helpful to you.  

Resources:

http://www.baltimorecityschools.org/students_and_families/services_and_supports

http://baltimorecityrecandparks.org/

http://www.mochamoms.org/

http://calendar.prattlibrary.org/

http://arts.jubileeartsbaltimore.org/

http://www.thecarrollschoolofdance.com/

https://www.gscm.org/

https://www.jhsph.edu/research/centers-and-institutes/center-for-prevention-of-youth-violence/resources/programs/mentoring.html

 

5. Do what’s best for you and your kids. God is going to continue to reveal to you the path that He has for you. Continue to pursue Him and His way.  You WILL be successful! 

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35 Goals for Year 35

On May 23,  I will be turning the big 35 and it is a bittersweet moment. I am saying goodbye to my early 30’s and I am stepping into a new developmental phase of my life.  

Even psychologists that have studied theories of human development have suggested that this is an important transition in adulthood… leaving the stage of young adulthood and moving on to the stage of middle adulthood. According to frequently studied psychologist Erik Erikson,  age 35- 65 is stage 6 in human development where generativity vs. stagnation takes place and the crisis becomes “generativity means the ability to contribute to one’s family, community, work, and society in a positive way, and to assist the younger generation. Success in this stage results in feelings of self- worth and connectedness with the world. Difficulties in this stage result in feeling insignificant, and the feeling that your activities are trivial, stagnant, or not helping future generations (Source: https://www.slideshare.net/srgeorgi/eriksons-developmental-stages)  

Erikson had it right. His theory accurately describes the place that I am in right now mentally, physically and spiritually. This whole journey to 35 has been one of great reflection, refinement and growth. The growing pains haven’t been easy but they have been purposeful.  I am pleased that they have led me to this current station in life.  

 I have created this list of 35 goals for year 35. It can also be thought of as lessons from years 1-34.  As I mature, I am pleased with the lessons that have costed me tears, pain and sleepless nights. The lessons that were learned through long, laborious paths that I sometimes traveled alone but I walked away with arms full of teachings that will guide me for the rest of my life’s journey.  I would like to share these lessons here.

Here they are – extract what you need for your journey moving forward. 

1. Thank God EVERY day that I am able to wake up. As soon as I am blessed to open my eyes and take another breath and live another day, God gets all of the praise and glory! 

2. Read an affirmation out of “Because I AM A Queen: 100 Affirmations for Daily Living” by Monokia Tyson and Mothyna James – Brightful every morning before I start my day.  It assists me with getting into the appropriate royal mindframe for my day.

 Available for purchase at:  

http://www.hwhn.org/_p/prd1/1084758971/product/because-i-am-a-queen

3. Pray every morning, afternoon, evening and night.  I find that my best prayers occur when I am on a quick break at work, in the waiting room at the doctors’ office or anywhere that I have downtime. It is becoming my second job.. staying in constant conversation with my Creator. 

4. Create a prayer and gratitude journal. Speaking to God through writing is a way to speak to God silently when you are unable to speak your thoughts.  Thanking God through writing is also a tool of praise and worship. 

5. Read devotionals daily. Every day, I receive devotionals by email from Girlfriends in God. They provide biblical teachings and lessons for navigating life as a Christian woman.

The link is here to sign up to receive devotionals from Girlfriends In God: http://girlfriendsingod.com/devotions/

6.  Journaling personal thoughts and experiences. “Scientific evidence supports that journaling provides other unexpected benefits. The act of writing accesses your left brain, which is analytical and rational. While your left brain is occupied, your right brain is free to create, intuit and feel. In sum, writing removes mental blocks and allows you to use all of your brainpower to better understand yourself, others and the world around you. ” (Source: https://psychcentral.com/lib/the-health-benefits-of-journaling/)

7.  There is nothing wrong with going to therapy. For the past 3 months, I have been attending weekly Christian counseling sessions with a licensed mental health professional. She has been assisting me with learning new coping skills for my psychosocial issues and provides a healing place and a listening ear for me to process my emotions regarding the issues of life. I think of my weekly therapy sessions in the same way that I think of my nail and hair appointments.  Therapy is self-care.  “Psychotherapy — also called talk therapy, therapy, or counseling — is a process focused on helping you heal and learn more constructive ways to deal with the problems or issues within your life. ” (Source: https://psychcentral.com/psychotherapy/)

8. No more sacrificing time, money, talents, gifts, energy, love, health, wealth, mental health, self-esteem, wisdom, passion, resources, power, generosity or weakness for anyone. Self preservation is now an important goal for me in this stage of my life. In the past, I have been very loose with boundaries and have sacrificed much of myself for persons who have not deserved it and received nothing in return leaving myself empty. Emptiness is not beneficial for myself or those who are in need of assistance from me.  I will no longer pour from an empty vessel.  Reciprocity is important to me. 

9.  No more allowing myself to knowingly be used and abused. This is self-explanatory. God gives us the gift of discernment to keep us safe.  I have learned to never question what God has already confirmed. His no is His no… even when it hurts.

10. No more sacrificing core values for social acceptance by anyone. Over the past few years, I have developed a core code of conduct as well as core values. These values are my standard operating practice in life.  Some of my values may be too strong for other people who do not share my same religious background and as I’ve grown I have learned to accept this. Initially it wasn’t easy expressing my belief system but as time has progressed this is who I am and I don’t mind expressing this to other people especially if their behavior conflicts with my values. 

11. No more trading time for money when time is worth more.  I have had periods in life where I have sacrificed weekends to work extra hours just to make extra money – that I didn’t necessarily need.  I could have rested, spent time alone, spent time with family or any other activity during that time that I chose to work extra hours. Time is priceless and we can never gain back lost time. 

12. No more wasting time on meaningless friendships, stagnant relationships or dead-end employment opportunities. It is important to keep my end goal for friendships, relationships and employment in mind at all times. The goal is to be constantly growing and bearing fruit.  If something isnt growing, it is dead. 

13. Being honest about hurts, pains and traumatic experiences without allowing them to define me. 

14. Stepping outside of the confines of my past, my upbringing and what I have been accepting as my plight in life in hobbies, friendships, businesses and relationships and reaching to new places outside of my comfort zone. 

15. Saying goodbye to habits that are apart of my past that are unable to travel with me to my future.

16. Getting rid of the sting of past rejections and not allowing them to cloud my expectations of future acceptance. 

17.  Remembering that life isn’t about the destination, it is about the journey. Twists, turns and detours are a part of the process. 

18.  Reminding myself about freedom of choice.. that its okay to say no. God gave me freedom to make the best choices for me. 

19.  Reminding myself that my health is a priority; I can no longer allow my emotions to control my food and exercise choices. I must be responsible for the body and health that God gave me. 

20 – 35.  Reminding myself daily that I am enough. God has given me the tools to survive and thrive in that days that He has alotted to me. It is up to me to either create a masterpiece or a mess of those days. 

I am choosing to create a masterpiece by remembering God’s infinite love, through daily/hourly prayer and bible study, journaling, therapy, self-love, self-care, exercise, positive and healthy family relationships and friendships, healthy diet, effective time management skills and consistent focus and effort. 

It is my hope that this list has been beneficial to the people who have read it.  Wisdom is meant to be shared with others. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

It’s Here!

Wow, my first blog post! This blog has been in the making for years. I am so thankful that God has allowed me to finally get out of my own way and get this thing moving! I am a living witness that God does everything in His timing, not our timing but His.  Over the past few years, God has had me in a continuous season of spiritual, psychological and physical transformation. It has been years of demolition and rebuilding. In the rebuilding, there has been the planting of seeds, the growth of the seeds into plants, then the removal of weeds and the discarding of the parts of the plants that were not useful.  It has been painful at times,  but the pain has been useful.  Each significant pain in this process has been accompanied by a new level of growth. It has shown me how intentional God really is.  Romans 8: 28 says “ And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”It has made my faith stronger and made me resolute in my commitment to God. 

The Living Royal mantra has come directly from my experience with God. For many years, prior to the transformation taking place, I struggled with extremely low self-esteem. It was a problem that started in my childhood as a result of severe emotional/physical abuse at the hands of my primary caregiver that I carried into adulthood. It was accompanied by extreme low mood/depression. It affected every area of my life from my education, to my friendships, to my interactions with other people, to my relationships with the opposite sex and kept me in bondage for most of my life. It stole much of my quality of life from age 10 to age 30. However, when it was time, God allowed a shift to take place. 2 Corinthians 12:9, “But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” Everything fell apart all at once and what I had internalized for most of my life had to come out.. in the form of a life changing breakdown. I thought it was the breakdown that would finally take my life.

However, this was not so. God is so intentional and His methods are not understandable to the naked human eye but they always end up making sense and working out for our good. Proverbs 3:5-6 says “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” He allowed this transformation to take place and he literally forced me to face everything I had experienced in my previous seasons of my life and what I was experiencing in that current season all at once. Some of that experience is detailed in my book, Restoring Broken Wings, A Redemption Story, which is currently available on Amazon.com. 

After the transformation process started taking place, a shift took place in my thought process as well as my self-awareness. The transformational process on most days included me clinging to God the way we cling to our pillows for comfort so that we can sleep at night. There were days, weeks, months and years of me accepting my own weakness, trauma and mental health issues and allowing God to care for me as I was too weak to care for myself and it was difficult to explain this process to others. It was also not something that I wanted to discuss with others outside of my mental health providers it was only something God could handle.  

Two years after the process started, I woke up and felt and physically noticed that a shift had taken place and that the downtrodden person I was had transformed. I felt like Eveline’s servants in the Wiz after her death. The enslavement garment and mindset were gone. There was a new woman living inside of my heart, my mind and my body. I started loving myself and accepting myself, even those dark places that kept me in shame and bondage for most of my life.  The shroud of darkness I lived under for most of my life was gone. It was no longer my cross to bear. The Bible says in John 8:36 “So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed.”.  My freedom had finally arrived and it felt so good. 

My freedom and my experience with Christ has affected every area of my life and allowed me to fully be able to operate in my gifts. It allowed me to be fully present in all areas of my life. This was not something that was able to take place in my past. Thus, I was able to finally see seeds growing that I had planted in my career and other areas of my life. These “wins” greatly influenced my self-esteem and helped it to grow exponentially. The Bible says in Joel 2:25, “”Then I will restore to you the years that the locust swarm devoured, as did the young locust, the other locusts, and the ravaging locust, that great army of mine that I sent among you.” I know now that all of battles that I have had to fight in my life have made me a strong and faithful person. I also know that overcoming these battles has elevated me to a new level in my life. I use them as a stool to stand on.. I would not have the testimony and life experience that I have had, if it weren’t for them.  I finally see myself as God sees me.. as His beautiful daughter who is worth so much to Him.. that He did not allow me to die in a situation that could have killed me. 

Now onto the reason for this blog, during a prayer session God showed me “Living Royal”. He showed me that this is the message I am supposed to share with other women who are going through situations like the ones I have been through. For a long time, I wrestled with this.. but then I thought about Esther 4:14 ” For if you keep silent at this time, relief and deliverance will rise for the Jews from another place, but you and your father’s house will perish. And who knows whether you have not come to the kingdom for such a time as this?”  I know that God kept me so that I can help YOU.  Your freedom is tied to me sharing my story and I want you to live . I don’t just want you to live.. I want you to thrive. I want you to live the life God has for you. 

Living Royal comes from 1 Peter 2:9 ”  But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.”  God sees you as His royal creation. He sees you as His special possession. No matter what happened to you in the past whether its addiction, sexual abuse, child abuse, promiscuity, mental illness, divorce, homelessness, rape, etc. God STILL sees you as His royal creation and the purpose of this blog and the Living Royal movement to help you recognize your royalty.  It is my sincere prayer that this blog is a place of freedom for women everywhere. 

I can be reached at jessica@jessicatfauntleroy.com.  If you are interested in being featured here with your story of transformation, let me know. 

Be blessed, 

Jessica